What is your motivation? Is it your happiness, your comfort, your reputation, your acceptance, your desire to avoid pain? Are you looking to earn points with God? Is it all about looking good to God and to others? Or, are you motivated by a heart-felt desire to obey God, to follow Jesus, and to glorify the Lord? How you answer this question matters tremendously. It’s all about the condition of your heart – your motivation. Is your motivation (heart) still turned to you or is it turned to God?
Maybe you need to cry out, like David did, “create in me a clean heart O’ God. Renew a right spirit within me.” Is this your prayer? Is this your deepest desire? Are you willing to allow this to happen? Caution - you will have to give up yourself for this to happen. However, there is really no option. We are must be completely His. We must be willing to love God with our whole heart.